To my mum

Mom...


There is nothing left inside
I'm stuck here in this moment
You won't let me become the adult
I want to be
You won't let me be anything
Call me useless, worthless
I'm not worth your time
I want to take the responsiblities
I so eagerly deserve
For putting up with words like
"You'll never make it"
For years of my life
Can't you be even a little supportive?
To the daughter that looks exactly like you
I'll never respect you.
When will you realize it.
I'll never look up to you
Because you stand for everything that I despise
Divorce, hate, ignorance, and
The fact that you don't understand love
Love isn't mean and it doesn't cheat
You think it does
Love doesn't yell, or hit
He does
And you think he loves you
And this is why I don't respect you
Because you keep him around.

And just because I'll never respect you
Doesn't mean I don't care.

Mom, I'm worried I'll end up just like you.